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maybe this is just a protective mechanism
but this place has become everything i hate
all i ever wanted
was to fit in
crucify me sideways
i never stood the slightest chance cause you
never wanted me so i decided
to hate you categorically
insult me as what i might be
tio estas
kio mi estas
kiu mi estas
i would like to make this my strong point which is
easier said than done
i begged you to move when i was younger
cause it always felt so wrong
patriotism is just overcompensation
when there is no place where i belong
all my life raised to be homeless and i can't
even call the streets my own
tio estas
kio mi estas
kiu mi estas
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2. |
F19.2 (The Rat)
03:42
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the rat has lost all self-esteem
the rat has become so withdrawn
cause it's just not quite there yet
and not quite here anymore
the strings it clings to are breaking
when you don't understand what it means
no use blaming artists or Hollywood
humans can smell insecurity
it knows it's getting worse, every single time
the rat is good at fucking things up stop
questioning the WHY
when you realize that you can't stop the itching
exile yourself, exile yourself
roaming the dark parks and alleys
relapse again, relapse again
the rat has crawled right into this
knowing the consequences and fully aware
it knows that it has issues
it just can't afford to care
the rat has never been so well informed
subconsciously somewhat even looking for this
and you will recognize in yourself
those self-destructive tendencies
it knows it's getting worse, every single time
the rat is good at fucking things up stop
questioning the WHY
when you realize that you can't stop the itching
exile yourself, exile yourself
roaming the dark parks and alleys
relapse again, relapse again
when i realize that i can't stop the itching
exile myself, exile myself
roaming the dark parks and alleys
relapse again, relapse again
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3. |
J.C.V. (May 5, 2016)
03:38
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you're so much deeper than the others
drawn apart by some riptide
hand you back that cross discretely
and stopped responding at some point
jehowa's ice cream truck and sneaking out
everything's so blurry and i don't know why
changed a lot
barely like the one you knew
depth that spoke from big brown eyes
you'll be in my heart
didn't stay for the funeral
and straight into the light
hope you weren't scared for a single second
payed by installments but still a suicide
and did you sense it, did you know it?
Don't know what happened
and if it felt alright
i will never find out
there's always more to say
when it's about good byes
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4. |
Doesn't Fit
02:13
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i've killed hundreds
they all killed me
i shot once
they shot 10 times
i've killed hundreds
they all killed me
i'm not even armed
you fire away
y'all make it look so easy
we're not wired for senselessness
it's easy to stigmatize
those who are creeping under the radar
i've killed hundreds
they all killed me
it's easy to point fingers
it's easy to read greed
i've killed hundreds
they all killed me
we're very busy
killing ourselves
y'all make it look so easy
we're not wired for senselessness
it's easy to stigmatize
those who are creeping under the radar
i've killed hundreds
they all killed me
ex-post-diagnosing
bad apples in the bunch
i've killed hundreds
they all killed me
we're now gagged
so fuck us good
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i don't know what to do with myself and i feel so fucking empty
i'm 22 now and wasting my life
middle-class ennui
i just wanna feel something or nothing at all
sure i won't see 28
i wanna get really really fucked up
i just wanna get fucked up
oxys, hydros, codeine,
and forget that i'm wasting my life
speed, xanax, dilaudid,
you know what
just fuck it
my drug of choice, just put it in
destroy myself or everything else
destroy myself or everything else
i'm bored to death
just wanna feel
i have no fucking clue
it all don't mean shit anyways
so what am i supposed to do?
i got no future in this place
unleash the demons, my darkest instincts
i don't mind or i don't care
trust me, there are worse things
i just wanna get fucked up
oxys, hydros, codeine,
and forget that i'm wasting my life
speed, xanax, dilaudid,
you know what
just fuck it
my drug of choice, just put it in
destroy myself or everything else
destroy myself or everything else
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6. |
(S)he Wants The D
03:05
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wrap yourself in pointless statements
filter the shit out, 4 districts of silence
you need assurance but there's nothing i could give
chasing tar, it's a comfortable death
are you really happy now?
they always fall for you
the helpless helper sydrome
or did i just give up
my vantage point, my vantage point
the shadows in your eyes are all i can see
and there's always someone who will fuck you legally
i know the bullshit mode is convenient
this fucking trench-warfare
we're each at a sharp end
are you really happy now?
they always fall for you
the helpless helper sydrome
or did i just give up
my vantage point, my vantage point
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7. |
Colombi Wake-Up Drill
02:55
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slap in the face won't do the job
memory goes blank when i need it the most
this might be bothering me more than it should
cause you could have been someone i know
she says she lost her son and husband this way
should have myself checked in 2 to 3 months
i'm not some fucking hero
time almost went on without you
cause you were already kinda gone
blue lips
blank eyes
looking at your arms probably not your first time
the ambulance is taking their sweet time
can't get your face out of my mind
mobilize all my adrenaline
can't stop crying, can't stop shaking
so scared to see your face again
can't pass the park or central station
your limp body can't sit up no more
continue with 8 beats per minute
make up another story just to get them here
cause you got fully loaded
blue lips
blank eyes
looking at your arms probably not your first time
the ambulance is taking their sweet time
can't get your face out of my mind
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8. |
Come Down & Play Along
02:56
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you should have known when to call me
you should have known how to love me
you should have known how to read me
you should have known my secret fears
cause this is all i'm asking of you
aren't you my closest friends?
am i asking to much
i am asking to much
love me don't leave me
i need you to feed me
you should have known before i speak
you should have known better
you should have known when i don't know myself
you should have known how to fucking play along
cause this is all i'm asking of you
aren't you my closest friends?
am i asking to much
i am asking to much
love me don't leave me
i need you to feed me
cause this is all i'm asking of you
hurt me when i can't hurt myself
just me so i can hate you
but don't ever leave me for anyone else
love me don't leave me
i need you to need me
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9. |
Unknown Soldier
04:16
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no one can make this un-happen
but you can learn to live with it
let me open the door and lay down your guns
cause only you can do that
i see your scars inside and out
you'll always have a home here
cause you've been through worse than most can imagine
you got that 100 yard stare
now take off your amor
take off your battle gear
you've carried all that weight for way too many years
let's sit and talk for a while
it's okay, it's over now
i'm your ally, here to help
you don't have to do this on your own
you're so strong and brave
and deserve all decorations
just for staying alive
but the enemy is gone now
and you'll win the war
though they have won one fight
scream, numb yourself, and cry
do what you gotta do
i wish I could take the pain away and give you justice
but that's solely up to you
now take off your amor
take off your battle gear
you've carried all that weight for way too many years
let's sit and talk for a while
it's okay, it's over now
i'm your ally, here to help
you don't have to do this on your own
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when you wake up in the morning
i hope you get hit by a truck
not a normal one though
one with spikes attached to the front
and the spikes pierce through your stomach
and the feeces and acid go into your bloodstream
and then you'll die of sepsis
that shit's really painful
Why don't you all just swallow razorblades??!!
i hope you grab a high current cable
slowly electrocute yourself
no it's not gonna be fast
you're gonna see the flesh melt of your arms
and then you defecate yourself
cause your sphincter isn't working when you die
Why don't you all just swallow razorblades??!!
i hope you have some tasty fugu-fish
and then you get burried alive
you wanna scream, you wanna cry for help
but your body is totally numb
so you suffocate in agony
6 feet underground
Why don't you all just swallow razorblades??!!
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Malfunc Prism Freiburg, Germany
Founded in 2015, only one original member is left. We write about our personal experiences such as loss, abuse, addiction,
mental illness, etc.
The current line up is:
Dustin - Bass
Kurt - Guitar
Erol - Drums
Michi - Vocals (on the next album)
Alex - Vocals, Guitar
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